Written on October 11, 2013
Over the past years, I have experienced different things on my spiritual journey. In the beginning, I would not have imagined myself as myself. I often anxiously awaited the gifts that were hidden inside of me to explode into a life where I could use them as a norm. It was exciting to think of being able to connect with the source. Now, I love feeling the presence of my angels or seeing images of Godly displays. Over the last couple of months, I have been delving deeper into connecting with source. In my room lies an altar in which I use to pray and guide me in meditations.
I pull from different religions, but now I'm in a state where I pull from none. I respect all points of view that point to light and believe they all have a purpose. I am not one to partake in holy debates or wars. I believe in respecting your choice and seeing all those who delight in the higher power in a new place. I do believe that what we know will cease to exist and be replaced with the truth. It may not even be as I nor you perceive it because we can only grasp so little of the spirit world with our human minds and eyes.
Its been a path that has taken me to different states of mind and at times I do question my sanity. I do doubt the things that I see because it's not "normal" to be that aware. We live in an egotistical world that is fueled by power and classes so it's unacceptable to know anything more than big business. Get real! I watch the news and I see the terror going on and the re-occurring issues in the world and I just feel awful. I wish at times that the world would be more awakened as a whole. I then, go and pray for the positive changes to manifest in the world.
On a more interpersonal level I am constantly in a state of introspection. Sometimes when my spirituality takes a hold and my spirit is thriving I can be in a state of bliss for days. The colors of the plants and trees seem to illuminate. The sounds of the earth echoes the universal understanding of an earthly balance. It's those things that gets "it" and we are the ones (humans) that don't. It has to be the fact that we are blessed with the ability to understand. It's like a secret locked within us that we chisel at to get answers.
Why does it take for something tragic to happen for us to wake up? At least, in my case it didn't have to be so tragic, but when I found my well of spiritual abundance I was in a dark state of mind. I felt impending doom for days upon days and I couldn't understand why. It led me into a state of insomnia and depression. I was living in fear of leaving my home. The only way I could find some peace was by writing.
I would bare my soul on paper for hours. I would even find myself talking in quotes or have wisdom beyond my years that would flow so natural. When I finally was able to leave that dark state I entered into another where I didn't know how to channel the voice of God. I knew we had a connection, but wasn't sure how I could be able to speak to him as he spoke to me. It took up until now for me to be able to fully connect to him.
Around a year ago, the angelic presences started to happen. I would smell a scent that wasn't present, feel a cool breeze, or a warm touch around my body. I was alarmed and would look around for some logical explanation, but couldn't find any. It was kind of hard to tell friends or family members because again it wasn't a norm. So I kept it hidden for awhile and just relish with the fact that I had angelic presences that protected me. Usually, I would feel them at home, but one day I remember feeling them at work.
It was funny because I jumped slightly, but no one noticed. It gave me a reassurance that I wasn't alone and that God or the Higher Power, as I like to refer to the greatest entity, was proud of me. Once you open up to the vibration of a higher consciousness and realize that you are one with everything that occurs on Earth and in the Universe it is a wonderful feeling. You are then blessed with a gratefulness and a thirst for understanding. I felt chosen by the Universe to do great things. I'm not claiming that I am special, but I am rather humble to have reached a state of awakening at such a young age and it will strengthen over time.
Now, it isn't an easy path to go down because you are aware and accountable for your actions. You see from more than your perspective so you can't approach life in a brash manner. This path leads to compassion, redemption, love, and understanding. Trust that there are times when you want to give up or feel that what your gaining from the spirit world is too intense for you to handle. That is all expected and accepted and you can choose the pace to enlightenment. Personally, there has been times when I felt overwhelmed by messages and I read an article online that said you could choose and let the spirit world know that its too much.
Its a learning experience and as you grow you will learn more ways to channel yourself. So don't fret when you don't get it right the first or hundredth time because you are given permission to fail at birth by being born human. It is our God given right to make mistakes as long as they lead you to source. We are not Gurus or Spiritual leaders by nature. There are some chosen ones, but for the rest of us it is a bit harder. Even those who are spiritual masters have failed and succeeded.
All that matters is a good heart and pure intentions of learning and sharing all you can, that is good, in the name of good for your time on Earth. We should live to encourage others to find their paths whether it be in an organized religion or a free based spiritual practice like metaphysics. It is good however, to read about different spiritual practices to help you identify with what is important to you. Take time to decode the similarities and differences. Look throughout early world civilizations and their connection with the Universe. It always amazes me how they looked to the stars for answers and ways to do things on Earth.
It's quite baffling when I hear of people who just believe in humanity. It's not possible for humanity to be of such greatness when we are actually fragile, weak, and eventually die. There has to be something greater that drives that force in us. It has to be something greater to have created this planet and universes beyond. Humanity can't take credit for that. I believe, as humans we are the highest level of shepherds to the earth. We actually can differentiate wrong from right and should tend to the Earth as it should be.
The Earth has a natural order that shows us what to do and all we have to do is be in sync with that order and life would prosper. Only when we tried to control the balance did things go haywire. Now, things have spiraled out of control and we have no idea of how to control it. It has now come a time when people are seeking more inside and figuring out a way to understand the chaos. Chaos is a part of the natural order, but it has taken on a new spin lately. Chaos is designed to bring about change. Its an upheaval that makes way for a new balance, but instead chaos is bringing more chaos.
Natural chaos would be a storm that rolls in from the sea. It pours down heavy on the earth and you hear loud roars of thunder and see bright spectacles of lightning. We may be frightened by the sound and sight, but it's good for the earth. The trees, plants, animals, and even us benefit from the abundance of rainfall. For that moment, we experienced chaos and afterwards we experienced change. I even understand the wars especially when the new world was found. Its like seeing through a kaleidoscope.
So how does one live while uncovering spiritual understanding? That's a question that each individual can answer. I can only speak from personal experience and I say at times I'm unsure of the answer. I then, focus on the things I can change and pray for the things I can't. I still struggle with my ego and my soul. Its hard being spiritual in a material world. The material world is so massive and bullying. It's where everyone goes for relief because it is where we identify with each other. It is what we humans have created so its like a safe haven. We know what everything is and where is everything is located. There is no room for questioning because all is obvious and logical.
It is good to partake in the material world because you don't live in a world alone. You have to interact with other people with different view points. Its a way to imply what you have learned on your journey. Your views and beliefs will be challenged and you can learn more from others. The best part of this journey is that it continues for the rest of your life. I am curious about what happens after this lifetime. I believe we all are even if we don't admit it.
Even so, its not what we will do in the next lifetime that will count. I believe in past lives and what you do in this lifetime will affect what will happen to you in your next life time. A breath given isn't a breath wasted so utilize this lifetime wisely and seek answers within and around. Blessed be on your journey to enlightenment.
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