The spiritual path can be full of fluff and light as you connect to love, but there is another side to it. There are those moments when you feel like giving up and alone without anyone around you who can understand your pain. There are moments when those around you question your sanity and call you names. There is no light in this world without darkness. It is the only way we will earn an appreciation for life. Everyone has their own path in life and before reincarnating to this earthly plane it was set as to how they would learn their lessons. You may question your path and say something is too hard, but you have to remember that your soul signed up for this mission and can handle it. I, often make a joke that someone changed my paper when I turned my head so I got the wrong assignment!
There are moments in life when frustration and confusion set in and I want to remind you all that is all part of the plan. It doesn't mean that something is wrong with you. You have to feel those emotions in order to understand them. I have felt some really low emotions and at points it felt like my heart was being ripped out of my chest and smashed on, but it was in my plan to feel those emotions. I have felt the emotions of "unworthiness" and a "lack of trust in myself and others". I have been through depression that felt like it wouldn't lift up and still had to be strong for others. Pain is one hell of a motivator used to make you uncomfortable. Once you are uncomfortable then you will have no choice, but to change. I can be a creature of habit because when the universe makes big life changes in my life it can be like a whirlwind so I like to catch my breath. LOL
The universe is hell bent on us taking our higher paths and these changes that are going on can feel like some horrible shit where you are forced to face everything that you have been at war with inside of you. It is pulling up all of those emotions that we have ran from in the past that we weren't mature enough to admit. It is challenging our capacity to love ourselves and others. The ego isn't going down so easily as it doesn't understand why our hearts still love after rejection or mistreatment. It isn't understanding our strength to keep going after having so many doors shut in our face. It isn't understanding how we are able to keep going in a direction that has no guarantee. It is just not understanding a damn thing!
This post has to be real because I want people to understand that this path isn't the easiest one to take, but at some point you have to surrender to the higher calling and stop questioning everything. I have to also take my own advice and walk my own talk. This path requires a shit load of faith and trust in something greater than yourself. As well as a nuclear explosion worth of love that will pull you completely out of your comfort zone. You can't live a whole and complete life if you continue to play it safe. You have to take calculated risk, but sometimes you fuck up along the way and that is okay. Everyone has fucked up along the way and don't let anyone tell you different. It takes bravery to live in accordance with your spiritual truths.
Even if others aren't applauding you then know that I am applauding you. Your guides, angels, and infinite creator is applauding you as well. It is time that you start applauding you too. Dive deep into the shadow and get to the root of your pain so you can heal once and for all. Acknowledge all that you have been hiding from yourself and quietly admit it out loud if you aren't comfortable admitting it to others. The longer we keep that shit inside of us then the harder it is to get rid of. Last night, I laid it bed and decided that my happiness is in need of a tune up. It is time I face all of my pain head on and fully get to the root of the pain. Sometimes fear gets in the way of intuition as the mind is a powerful tool and can make you feel as though your pain is real, but it isn't.
I wasn't aware of my own inner strength, but now is as great of a time as any to find out just how strong I am. It is a scary journey going back in, but things are boiling to the surface in need of being released and I have to let it go. It is time to release all the stories you have told yourself to make room for the truth. The truth will always win in the end. Dive deep like the spiritual warrior that you are. It doesn't have to be a hard dive either. Set yourself up with quiet time to reflect, cry, scream, or write if you have to. Go to the gym and punch some shit! (That's what I am going to do!) It is a matter of doing whatever you have to do to get rid of those uncomfortable feelings and blocks that keep your desires from flowing to you with ease and grace.
This is a time to be gentle with yourself so don't press for change, but instead reflect and heal. The reason things haven't been the way you want is because you aren't a match to your desires. You have to get clear on what you want to receive what you want. Then it is a matter of taking courageous action to getting those desires. Go and examine all the bullshit in your heart and head to set yourself straight. Maturity is a matter of owning up to your own shit and no longer blaming others. It is time to grow up and own up! I will be participating in this as well. Get out of your way and allow the universe to show you some amazement. See you all in a higher level. Thanks for taking the time to listen to this shadow rant.
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